In the Future When All's Well

The summer has provided me with an entirely new discovery of life. Laying in the grass on a mildly cool day - the breeze caresses its hand against your skin; while wisps of hair gently brush across your face; and the sun sneaks its way through the swaying branches, reaching towards the ground below. Sit back and recognize the beauty around you, for it gives an undeniable sense of appreciation for your own being. To coexist in a world full of love and pleasantries is entirely satisfying.

The road leads where it's led, and wether by chance or not, my path has led me to a wonderful man with the best of intentions. He really is my silver lining :)

Girl Afraid

    I am fully aware of my own presence, and am finally content. Understanding recovery is a process and not a distinct goal has developed patience into a virtue. Avoid the rush, and take time to enjoy the beauty of life. I am quite happy with myself, and am pleased to have realized this.  

   I have friends in all of the right places, and I am looking forward to the possibility of new love and relationships. 

Oscillate Wildly

    Why do people choose to feel this way? And what exactly is this feeling? I can't say, but its quite discomforting. It didn't start as a choice, and it's still uncertain to me whether I've chosen this for myself or not. 

    Disassociating is an intense and wonderful experience that satisfies to the core. Is it worth losing a chance for happiness just for a temporary emotional reward? 

    I'm desperate for answers.

These Things Take Time

    I never thought life would be this complex, so full of uncertainties and contradictions. Simplicity has proved itself unattainable, and my attempts are completely futile.

     I'm not sure why I've always put the idea of love on such a high pedestal, but it's always pleased me. It's something I wish for myself; to experience and commit to someone so much like myself. It's horribly painful to have that connection with a man, and have it ripped away from you. An apology will not be accepted, for I've done nothing wrong. And distance only makes it harder, and I want more than anything for him to realize this.