Sweetie Pie

    Tonight I received a much needed visit. He told me I was the most beautiful woman he's ever seen, and that he'd found his perfect girl. It's what I needed to hear after so much internalized drama. I realize he has nothing to do with my pessimistic thoughts, it's all in my head. It's as if my brain wants to make up plenty of horrible scenarios to keep me on my feet.

     I really need to work on this uncertainty. I want to relax my mind every now and then, and just enjoy myself in the moment. If I keep wasting all of my time worrying, I won't have even the slightest chance for happiness.
"I love thee to the breadth and depth and height my soul can reach"

This line comes from my favorite poems by Elizabeth Barrett Browning, Sonnet 43. It describes exactly how I feel about him. I wish I could find my own words to tell him. I want him to really know, to really feel it. Because I do so much worrying I forget to focus on what I should really be doing. Giving him my indefinite attention, love, and strength. It will happen :)